Most of the time, I'm fine with being an Asian living in a "white" country.

But sometime I wonder how different my life would be, if I were a Korean person living in Korea, or an Australian living in Australia.
I am an Australian citizen and I have an Australian passport but that doesn't really make me a true Aussie.
I lived more than half of my life in Korea and part of me still thinks that I will never fully be an Australian.

The worst thing about living here is when I realise that I will always be different.
I won't have the same skin colour or hair or eye colour as people here.
If I was sitting in a train full of "Australians" (and I do think about this when I'm sitting on the train sometimes), I will stand out because I look different.

I love this country and I do want to spend the rest of my life here.
But sometimes I just want to be indifferent, I want to be normal. Like I would, if I was sitting in a subway in Korea.


Yeah sometimes it's good - I'm lucky to have experienced living in two countries, and their culture that's so different.
But sometimes... I just wonder. Sometimes.